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A Good Friend
May. 2nd, 2013 10:16 pmI need to talk about the scene some more. Yes that one.
( spoilerish for SPN 8x21 but only if you are really spoilerphobic )
( spoilerish for SPN 8x21 but only if you are really spoilerphobic )
Fic: The Garden Behind Door Number Three
Mar. 28th, 2013 03:23 pmTitle: The Garden Behind Door Number Three
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters/Pairings: Castiel & Balthazar
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1058
Summary: “What broke the connection?” - “I don’t know. I just know that I have to protect this tablet now.”, missing scene for 8x17. Inspired by this post on Tumblr.
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters/Pairings: Castiel & Balthazar
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1058
Summary: “What broke the connection?” - “I don’t know. I just know that I have to protect this tablet now.”, missing scene for 8x17. Inspired by this post on Tumblr.
In Every Universe
Mar. 10th, 2013 01:07 pmFor no particular reason I have decided that I need a introductory post for all my ships that include Misha and Sebastian, or characters they have played (or should play). As in, those two together, not one of them with other characters. That's an entirely different post.
I may not be 100% serious about all of these ships, but I do have a soft spot for every single one of them.
( Because 6 seasons between them is not an obstacle (some gifs under the cut) )
I may not be 100% serious about all of these ships, but I do have a soft spot for every single one of them.
( Because 6 seasons between them is not an obstacle (some gifs under the cut) )
Angels & Vessels
Feb. 28th, 2013 04:20 pmDo you realize that, while we know quite a few angels, we hardly know anything about their vessels? We know Jimmy and Nick, and the Winchester bloodline, and we get a small glimpse of the poor soul who said yes to Raphael, that's it. Do you ever wonder who the other vessels were, the people who were approached by an angel to hand over their bodies, and said yes. How were they treated by these beautiful and stunning, powerful and frightening creatures while being trapped with them in a body that was suddenly too small and infinitely large all at once? Did they ever regret their decision?
How about some head canon?
( There is nothing more personal than sharing a body )
By the way, does anyone know a website that has photos for free online use? I need them to illustrate some angel wing colour head canon I have.
How about some head canon?
( There is nothing more personal than sharing a body )
By the way, does anyone know a website that has photos for free online use? I need them to illustrate some angel wing colour head canon I have.
Fanfics: Angel Family Reunion
Dec. 23rd, 2012 06:32 pmI already posted the first part a few weeks ago, but not that it turned into a small series, I wanted them all in one post.
A special thank you to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
cassiopeia7, who urged me to write more angel family. <3
Part 1: Say My Name
Characters: Inias, Samandriel
Summary: Inias comes to Samandriel's rescue but Samandriel isn't the only one who needs saving.
Part 2: The Kindness of Heaven
Characters: Castiel, Inias, Samandriel
Summary: Castiel faces two of his brothers for the first time after his return from Purgatory
Part 3: Bruised
Characters: Castiel, Balthazar, (Inias, Samandriel)
Summary: It started as a rumor, whispers Samandriel heard when he went to investigate in Heaven.
A special thank you to
cassiopeia7, who urged me to write more angel family. <3Part 1: Say My Name
Characters: Inias, Samandriel
Summary: Inias comes to Samandriel's rescue but Samandriel isn't the only one who needs saving.
Part 2: The Kindness of Heaven
Characters: Castiel, Inias, Samandriel
Summary: Castiel faces two of his brothers for the first time after his return from Purgatory
Part 3: Bruised
Characters: Castiel, Balthazar, (Inias, Samandriel)
Summary: It started as a rumor, whispers Samandriel heard when he went to investigate in Heaven.
Ficlet: Untitled (SPN)
Aug. 20th, 2012 11:35 amTitle: Untitled
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: deaged!Castiel, Balthazar, Gabriel
Rating: PG-13
Spoiler: spoilers for 6x22
Warning: weird mixture of fluff and some angst, unbeta'd
Disclaimer: Still not mine.
Word Count: ~1.800
A/N: Very quickly written for an anonymous prompt on tumblr.
Summary: When Balthazar and Gabriel find Castiel he has been turned into a little kid. Things get even more complicated when it turns out that Castiel remembers the events from the civil war in Heaven.
( He's cute that way, don't you think? )
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: deaged!Castiel, Balthazar, Gabriel
Rating: PG-13
Spoiler: spoilers for 6x22
Warning: weird mixture of fluff and some angst, unbeta'd
Disclaimer: Still not mine.
Word Count: ~1.800
A/N: Very quickly written for an anonymous prompt on tumblr.
Summary: When Balthazar and Gabriel find Castiel he has been turned into a little kid. Things get even more complicated when it turns out that Castiel remembers the events from the civil war in Heaven.
( He's cute that way, don't you think? )
OE PAPNOR*
May. 20th, 2012 06:07 pmI never really mourned Balthazar. After 6x22 there was just so much going on with Castiel, and the fear of losing him too, that I never had time to stop. That, and the glimmer of hope I held onto, that the missing wing imprint meant something.
It has been exactly a year today.
( Goodbye my angel )
*Supposedly, this means "in memoriam" in Enochian. In reality, it probably makes no sense, but I hope my clumsy attempt to use his native tongue would make Balthazar laugh.
It has been exactly a year today.
( Goodbye my angel )
*Supposedly, this means "in memoriam" in Enochian. In reality, it probably makes no sense, but I hope my clumsy attempt to use his native tongue would make Balthazar laugh.
Long Time No Meme
Mar. 30th, 2012 09:17 am1. Leave a comment to this post, specifically saying that you would like a letter.
2. I will give you a letter.
3. Post the names of five fictional characters whose names begin with that letter, and your thoughts on each. The characters can be from books, movies, or TV shows.
cassiopeia7 gave me a 'B'.
( Balthazar, Buffy Summers, Bela Talbot, Brienne of Tarth, Bonnie Bennett )
2. I will give you a letter.
3. Post the names of five fictional characters whose names begin with that letter, and your thoughts on each. The characters can be from books, movies, or TV shows.
cassiopeia7 gave me a 'B'.( Balthazar, Buffy Summers, Bela Talbot, Brienne of Tarth, Bonnie Bennett )
Fanfic: Untitled (Supernatural/RPF)
Feb. 5th, 2012 12:12 pmFandom: Supernatural
Characters: Castiel, Balthazar, Misha, Sebastian
Rating: PG
Warnings: mixing fiction and reality without any explanation (and by 'reality' I mean more fiction), unbeta’d
Disclaimer: Castiel and Balthazar belong to each other, Misha and Sebastian belong to themselves. Or something like that.
Word count: 566
A/N: I wrote this on tumblr for9_of_clubs. We were talking about Nashcon and about how similar Balthazar and Sebastian seem to be at times, and about how we would like to show Balthazar that happy version of himself. And somehow this ficlet happened and turned out completely different and more angsty than planned.
( He reminds me of you... )
Characters: Castiel, Balthazar, Misha, Sebastian
Rating: PG
Warnings: mixing fiction and reality without any explanation (and by 'reality' I mean more fiction), unbeta’d
Disclaimer: Castiel and Balthazar belong to each other, Misha and Sebastian belong to themselves. Or something like that.
Word count: 566
A/N: I wrote this on tumblr for
9_of_clubs. We were talking about Nashcon and about how similar Balthazar and Sebastian seem to be at times, and about how we would like to show Balthazar that happy version of himself. And somehow this ficlet happened and turned out completely different and more angsty than planned.( He reminds me of you... )
Fanfic: In The Stars (Supernatural)
Jan. 27th, 2012 09:19 amTitle: In The Stars
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Castiel, Sam, Dean, (lots of) mentions of Balthazar
Rating: PG
Spoilers: up to 7x02
Warnings: angst, mentions of canon character death, unbeta’d
Disclaimer: As much as I wish they were, these characters are not mine.
Word count: ~3200
Summary: Castiel finds himself in a hospital, with no recollection of ever leaving Heaven.
( Castiel finds himself in a human body, which in itself is strange enough. )
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Castiel, Sam, Dean, (lots of) mentions of Balthazar
Rating: PG
Spoilers: up to 7x02
Warnings: angst, mentions of canon character death, unbeta’d
Disclaimer: As much as I wish they were, these characters are not mine.
Word count: ~3200
Summary: Castiel finds himself in a hospital, with no recollection of ever leaving Heaven.
( Castiel finds himself in a human body, which in itself is strange enough. )
I Will Go Down With These Ships
Dec. 23rd, 2011 03:13 pmWinter seems like the perfect time of year for the warmth and fuzziness (and sometimes raw sexual tension) of some of tv's best couples, don't you think?
( top ten favourite ships )
( top ten favourite ships )
I Will Go Down With These Ships
Dec. 23rd, 2011 03:13 pmWinter seems like the perfect time of year for the warmth and fuzziness (and sometimes raw sexual tension) of some of tv's best couples, don't you think?
( top ten favourite ships )
( top ten favourite ships )
Title: Lost Northern Star
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters/Pairing: Castiel/Balthazar, Dean
Rating: PG
Spoiler: 6x22
Warning: unbeta’d
Disclaimer: I wish they were mine so I could keep them safe, but they are not.
Word count: ca. 1500
Summary: Balthazar refuses to give up on Castiel.
A/N: I just love the thought of Balthazar being the one to get through to Castiel, and writing about the different ways it could happen it is very therapeutic.
Title stolen from Tarja Turunen.
( Dean can feel blood running down the side of his face. )
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters/Pairing: Castiel/Balthazar, Dean
Rating: PG
Spoiler: 6x22
Warning: unbeta’d
Disclaimer: I wish they were mine so I could keep them safe, but they are not.
Word count: ca. 1500
Summary: Balthazar refuses to give up on Castiel.
A/N: I just love the thought of Balthazar being the one to get through to Castiel, and writing about the different ways it could happen it is very therapeutic.
Title stolen from Tarja Turunen.
( Dean can feel blood running down the side of his face. )
Supernatural
Aug. 5th, 2011 11:11 amI think some people may be getting a wrong impression regarding my feelings towards Supernatural at the moment. I think some people may be getting a wrong impression regarding the entire Castiel (and Cas/Dean) part of the fandom, but I can only speak for myself, and I want to make a few things clear here:
Most importantly: I love this show.
I may be ranting and worrying and complaining a lot lately. I wouldn't do that if I didn't care.
Equally important: I still love Sam and Dean. Maybe not as much as I love Cas and Balthazar and Gabriel and (hate-love) Crowley, but of course I love them. I don't think it's possible to watch this show if you don't.
I also firmly believe that this show, in its core, has always been, will always be, and should always be about these two brothers. They are the heart and soul of Supernatural, and I don't think anyone could possibly doubt that.
BUT it can't be only about them. ( lengthy post about my feelings about this show, the characters, and what it is that I'm complaining about )
And here is another very important reason why - despite everything - I won't leave anytime soon: I love this fandom and I love the cast (and, most of the time, the crew)
This fandom, with all its wank and fighting, still is a big family. An most of the people I know support each other, and respect each other's opinion. There are quite a few black sheep, and that can hurt, but at the end of the day, most of you - and certainly everyone on my flist - are the most insane-in-a-good-way, creative, passionate, kind, unique bunch of people I've ever met. And even if the show should go downhill completely, I wouldn't leave because I don't want to leave YOU.
And this crazy, big family includes a lot of the actors, and quite a few of the writers, directors and other people working on the show. I don't think there is any other fandom where the actors are that involved and care that much. Be it Twitter, or cons, or insiders they send our way in interviews. They are just as completely insane as we are, and they never fail to brighten up my day.
I feel like I have found my home. Maybe we will move on one day, maybe we will go our separate ways at some point, maybe we will meet again in a different fandom. But for now, you are my family and this show is my home.
And this is exactly why I still love this show with all my heart. And this is equally why I worry and complain so much when I feel that things go terribly wrong. Because I care.
See a theme here?
ETA: Spoilers in the comments. You've been warned
Most importantly: I love this show.
I may be ranting and worrying and complaining a lot lately. I wouldn't do that if I didn't care.
Equally important: I still love Sam and Dean. Maybe not as much as I love Cas and Balthazar and Gabriel and (hate-love) Crowley, but of course I love them. I don't think it's possible to watch this show if you don't.
I also firmly believe that this show, in its core, has always been, will always be, and should always be about these two brothers. They are the heart and soul of Supernatural, and I don't think anyone could possibly doubt that.
BUT it can't be only about them. ( lengthy post about my feelings about this show, the characters, and what it is that I'm complaining about )
And here is another very important reason why - despite everything - I won't leave anytime soon: I love this fandom and I love the cast (and, most of the time, the crew)
This fandom, with all its wank and fighting, still is a big family. An most of the people I know support each other, and respect each other's opinion. There are quite a few black sheep, and that can hurt, but at the end of the day, most of you - and certainly everyone on my flist - are the most insane-in-a-good-way, creative, passionate, kind, unique bunch of people I've ever met. And even if the show should go downhill completely, I wouldn't leave because I don't want to leave YOU.
And this crazy, big family includes a lot of the actors, and quite a few of the writers, directors and other people working on the show. I don't think there is any other fandom where the actors are that involved and care that much. Be it Twitter, or cons, or insiders they send our way in interviews. They are just as completely insane as we are, and they never fail to brighten up my day.
I feel like I have found my home. Maybe we will move on one day, maybe we will go our separate ways at some point, maybe we will meet again in a different fandom. But for now, you are my family and this show is my home.
And this is exactly why I still love this show with all my heart. And this is equally why I worry and complain so much when I feel that things go terribly wrong. Because I care.
See a theme here?
ETA: Spoilers in the comments. You've been warned
Right now, I wish I could draw
Jun. 12th, 2011 12:13 pmor take a photo of what I can see before my mind's eye or something. Since last night I've had this post-season 6-finale picture clearly in my mind, and it's so beautiful and heartbreaking, but unfortunately I have no way of getting it out other than trying to describe it:
Imagine a room made entirely of white marble. At least you have to assume it's a room, you can see neither walls nor the ceiling. It just sort of fades away into nothingness. Nothingness that is almost impossible to look at. It is not blinding, like light, but simply... well, nothing.
There are a few steps, maybe four or five, leading to a throne (made of white marble, just like everything else).
On this thrones sits Castiel, exactly how we know him, suit, and crooked tie and trench coat and all. You can see that he is powerful and in control, and at first glance just as cold and beautiful as the stone all around him. But when you look a little closer, look at his eyes, they are still as blue and deep as the ocean, just like they always were. They are still so very Cas. And you can see the loneliness and the pain in them while he stares into the distance.
Right at his feet, a little to his left, sits Balthazar on the top-most step. He is dressed entirely in black, a stark contrast to all the white around them. And he looks up to Castiel with nothing but love and worry. Balthazar looks like he wants to reach out and touch his brother, but he knows that he can't reach him. So he stays there and hopes and prays that somewhere deep down Castiel knows that Balthazar will never leave him. "You always have little old me."
I cannot get this picture out of my head.
Imagine a room made entirely of white marble. At least you have to assume it's a room, you can see neither walls nor the ceiling. It just sort of fades away into nothingness. Nothingness that is almost impossible to look at. It is not blinding, like light, but simply... well, nothing.
There are a few steps, maybe four or five, leading to a throne (made of white marble, just like everything else).
On this thrones sits Castiel, exactly how we know him, suit, and crooked tie and trench coat and all. You can see that he is powerful and in control, and at first glance just as cold and beautiful as the stone all around him. But when you look a little closer, look at his eyes, they are still as blue and deep as the ocean, just like they always were. They are still so very Cas. And you can see the loneliness and the pain in them while he stares into the distance.
Right at his feet, a little to his left, sits Balthazar on the top-most step. He is dressed entirely in black, a stark contrast to all the white around them. And he looks up to Castiel with nothing but love and worry. Balthazar looks like he wants to reach out and touch his brother, but he knows that he can't reach him. So he stays there and hopes and prays that somewhere deep down Castiel knows that Balthazar will never leave him. "You always have little old me."
I cannot get this picture out of my head.
Fic: To Be Loved
May. 22nd, 2011 04:32 pmTitle: To Be Loved
Fandom Supernatural
Characters/Pairings: Castiel/Balthazar
Rating: PG
Spoiler: up to 6x22
Warning: unbeta’d
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there would be hugs.
Word count: ~1000
Summary: "I could never turn on you. I would never leave you." Fix-it coda for 6x22
A/N: I’m not much of a writer, but this needed fixing, so I found a way to fix it.
( Castiel feels the power surge through him... )
Fandom Supernatural
Characters/Pairings: Castiel/Balthazar
Rating: PG
Spoiler: up to 6x22
Warning: unbeta’d
Disclaimer: Not mine. If they were, there would be hugs.
Word count: ~1000
Summary: "I could never turn on you. I would never leave you." Fix-it coda for 6x22
A/N: I’m not much of a writer, but this needed fixing, so I found a way to fix it.
( Castiel feels the power surge through him... )
Because Angels Need Love Too
May. 22nd, 2011 11:15 am
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