My Mind Works In Weird Ways
Mar. 8th, 2012 07:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gwaevalarinBetween the episode description about Castiel being a "healer", this photo, and this interview it looks more and more like Castiel was at least somewhat okay those last few months.
Which is the best news since anything season 7. Obviously we don't know for sure what it means and how it all fits together, but Misha sounds positive. And with him being the only one I still fully trust when it comes to Castiel, that makes me hopeful too. (Nice to remember what that feels like).
But here is the weird part about it: Suddenly I feel selfish for wanting Castiel back.
Castiel was maybe/hopefully/pleasepleaseplease okay ever since someone fished him out of that lake, and he got back on his feet, not remembering who he is and what happened but with these abilities, so he became a healer and was - those nightmares he had once in a while aside - content with his life for the last few months, or something like this.
And now he will return to Supernatural, and we all know that if you are on Supernatural there is no way around pain, and heartbreak and suffering.
He will get hurt again, no doubt about that, when he could have continued this somewhat peaceful life, and I wished it on him.
Of course the only reason this entire storyline about Cas being a healer, and alive and everything even exists is because he is coming back to the show. Otherwise he would still be at the bottom of that lake, or dead, or worse.
But somehow that's not how my mind works. In my mind, the fact that we learn about this now means it was always true, even though it wasn't or maybe it was, and this is getting really confusing.
So maybe I should just take this away from it all: The way things look right now, Castiel was not suffering at the bottom of a lake or in a mental asylum all these months. And no matter what happens next, that is a big relief.
Which is the best news since anything season 7. Obviously we don't know for sure what it means and how it all fits together, but Misha sounds positive. And with him being the only one I still fully trust when it comes to Castiel, that makes me hopeful too. (Nice to remember what that feels like).
But here is the weird part about it: Suddenly I feel selfish for wanting Castiel back.
Castiel was maybe/hopefully/pleasepleaseplease okay ever since someone fished him out of that lake, and he got back on his feet, not remembering who he is and what happened but with these abilities, so he became a healer and was - those nightmares he had once in a while aside - content with his life for the last few months, or something like this.
And now he will return to Supernatural, and we all know that if you are on Supernatural there is no way around pain, and heartbreak and suffering.
He will get hurt again, no doubt about that, when he could have continued this somewhat peaceful life, and I wished it on him.
Of course the only reason this entire storyline about Cas being a healer, and alive and everything even exists is because he is coming back to the show. Otherwise he would still be at the bottom of that lake, or dead, or worse.
But somehow that's not how my mind works. In my mind, the fact that we learn about this now means it was always true, even though it wasn't or maybe it was, and this is getting really confusing.
So maybe I should just take this away from it all: The way things look right now, Castiel was not suffering at the bottom of a lake or in a mental asylum all these months. And no matter what happens next, that is a big relief.
