gwaevalarin | I hate clowns! (Reply)

Okay first of all: I hate clowns. They are like the creepiest thing ever.

The episode wasn't the best Supernatural episode ever in terms of MotW and storyline. It was more like: We need some MotW story we can tell around what we actually want to tell about the brothers. But perhaps it just was too hard for this episode to compete with last week's. And the brotherly moments...

When they cremate John that just gives away so much about the boys. Sam's crying, not hiding his feelings. He seems like he's craving to have someone to talk to, someone he can hold onto. I just want to crawl into the screen and hug him. And Dean's just looking empty, like there's nothing left. Oh, boys!

And the worst thing is that - Winchester style - they both grieve alone. They are standing side by side in this scene but they are completely alone.

And then we're back at Bobby's one week later. One of the first things I noticed: The boy's still have bruises. You've learnt since "Shadows", didn't you? And Dean's amulet is back. Things have gone back to something you can almost call normal. At least from the outside. Dean's fixing the Impala to keep him occupied pretending like nothing happened while Sam seems to pretty much have nothing to do except for thinking about John, the demon, everything. And he's trying to get through to Dean but hey, it's Dean so no chick-flick moments. Dean has some serious wall build around him and I'm sensing some real issues here.

"Come here. I'm gonna lay my head gently on your shoulder. Maybe we can cry, hug, and maybe even slow dance."

Ouch!

Sam finds a phone message from Ellen and the boys drive there. This car, the music... I want Metallicar back. Please!
We get to know Ellen, her daughter Jo and Ash, the genius. And I don't like them. Ellen's okay I guess but Jo and Ash: Just no! I don't need them back any other episode. Ever.

There's a hunt, a killer clown - and Dean thought vampires sounded funny - and I don't think Sam just wants to do this because John'd have wanted him to but also because it's something he can think about, something familiar: Go out there, find the creature and rocksalt it's ass.

"I mean, come on, you still bust out crying whenever you see Ronald McDonald on the television. "
"At least I'm not afraid of flying."
"Planes crash!"
"And apparently clowns kill!"

Bwah! Brotherly bantering. I missed that

Next victim. Don't be afraid of clowns? Are you kidding me. Of course you should be afraid of clowns. You know what's... erm, sorry, wrong episode. By the way when I was a kid I'd have freakd out and not invited that thing in.

"Looking for a cursed object is like trying to find a needle in a stack of needles."

I love that sentence.

"Have you seen him around." [...] "Just a little missunderstanding."
"Wanna give me a littel help here." - "Not really."

*giggles*
That was probably about every brick you could find to drop, Dean. And it's so great to see Sam laugh again. Really laugh at least for a moment. I guess that clown chair was the revenge.

"Sir, we don't want to go to school. And we don't want regular. We want this. "

Who are you and what have you done to Sam? Okay Dean noticed it too.

But we'll come to that later. That and all the Sam suddenly thinking about and doing what John wanted. Now it's about getting the job done. And they do: They find the next victim, save it, the parents think they're the bad guys so they have to leave the car behind. I have no idea how they get back to the "Roadhouse" and Bobby's later. Walk?

Sam brings up John again and they fight. Hell, I hate to see Sam and Dean fight. Really. They're both hurt, they both try to deal in their own way and somehow they both can't. And when Dean tells Sam that he can't make it right any more, that it's to late that has to be like a punch in the face for Sam. He looks so hurt. And Dean looks like he is a little sorry he said it but he's also upset. And everything's just so wrong.

They find out that they're up against a Rakshasa. They find it, they kill it. But who really cares about the MotW right now?

Back at Bobby's Sam manages to get the words out right this time and Dean just listens:

"About me and dad. I'm sorry that the last time I was with him I tried to pick a fight. I'm sorry that I spent most of my life angry at him. I mean, for all I know he died thinking that I hate him. So you're right. What I'm doing right now, it's too little. It's too late.
I miss him, man. And I feel guilty as hell. And I'm not all right. Not at all. But neither are you. That much I know.
I'll let you get back to work."

Oh, Sammy! Again I just want to hug him.

And obviously this time Sam got through and all the anger and all the pain is breaking out of Dean and he just smashes the window of some car and then...