I feel like I should aplologise for this, but I don't think I'm actually sorry.
You don't need to apologise for how you feel or don't feel. You're human, not a machine :p
The big question is whether he will return because they call him again, or because he chooses too. I really, really hope it will be the second option. I want to see a moment when the boys need him but don't call because they decide he's been through enough, and then Castiel turns up anyway because he WANTS to help them.
This is also my ideal. This is what NEEDS to happy, really. To show Cas really HAS grown and started living for himself. To show the boys aren't using him anymore. We are totally on the same page there.
...and if Cas also rocks up in the Impala somehow, well... jackpot :)
he is also very, very vulnerable right now, despite his powers. Emotionally vulnerable. And as soon as there is conflict, I think that is when he IS suffering.
I'm not sure anyone else is thinking like this, but... I disagree.
I think you can be vulnerable without being in pain or suffering. And I think that's where Cas is now. Conflict and anger ARE making him nervous and frightened and confused. But I don't think that's HURTING him right now. It's like the pain you feel in your muscles when you are exercising - it's a good pain, telling you that you are improving yourself, that you are healthy.
And it's not like Cas is wholly shying away from conflict or difficult things. If he was, he'd have just run from Sam and Dean altogether. But no, he stuck around to talk to Dean and then stand up to Hestor. The way I see it, Cas is exercising his emotions. And in order to do that he actually needs conflict and difficult situations. To have gone with Inias would have brought him peace, yes. But he's not looking for peace, he's looking, like he always has been since siding with Dean, for freedom. And that will bring him some pain from time and time and I think he's finally accepted that.
acceptance is exactly the type of person Castiel needs right now so he can gain some self confidence again and come back, not to the angel he used to be. He will never just be who he used to be again. But to being whole again, and ready to face the world once more.
So yeah, I'd have to disagree with this too. Partly because I think Inias wouldn't have been good for him in the long run - he'd have ultimately drawn Cas into a quiet stupor and tried to return him to the angel he was (not intentionally though! Inias is lovely, he wants only what he thinks is the best for Cas ♥). But also because I think Cas HAS self-confidence already. It was his newfound self-confidence that enabled him to be so sincere about his apology to Dean, to be so calm when talking to Sam and offering his blood. That enabled him to say 'no' to Inias and brave going off into the world alone.
Again, you can be self-confident, while also being vulnerable, I think.
In fact... I'm even starting to wonder if Cas is actually on to Meg's manipulation. He's just sticking with her anyway because he appreciates what she's done for him, whatever the reason, and has developed a certain fondness... damn it. Next episode please, I need these things expanded upon!
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You don't need to apologise for how you feel or don't feel. You're human, not a machine :p
The big question is whether he will return because they call him again, or because he chooses too. I really, really hope it will be the second option. I want to see a moment when the boys need him but don't call because they decide he's been through enough, and then Castiel turns up anyway because he WANTS to help them.
This is also my ideal. This is what NEEDS to happy, really. To show Cas really HAS grown and started living for himself. To show the boys aren't using him anymore. We are totally on the same page there.
...and if Cas also rocks up in the Impala somehow, well... jackpot :)
he is also very, very vulnerable right now, despite his powers. Emotionally vulnerable. And as soon as there is conflict, I think that is when he IS suffering.
I'm not sure anyone else is thinking like this, but... I disagree.
I think you can be vulnerable without being in pain or suffering. And I think that's where Cas is now. Conflict and anger ARE making him nervous and frightened and confused. But I don't think that's HURTING him right now. It's like the pain you feel in your muscles when you are exercising - it's a good pain, telling you that you are improving yourself, that you are healthy.
And it's not like Cas is wholly shying away from conflict or difficult things. If he was, he'd have just run from Sam and Dean altogether. But no, he stuck around to talk to Dean and then stand up to Hestor. The way I see it, Cas is exercising his emotions. And in order to do that he actually needs conflict and difficult situations. To have gone with Inias would have brought him peace, yes. But he's not looking for peace, he's looking, like he always has been since siding with Dean, for freedom. And that will bring him some pain from time and time and I think he's finally accepted that.
acceptance is exactly the type of person Castiel needs right now so he can gain some self confidence again and come back, not to the angel he used to be. He will never just be who he used to be again. But to being whole again, and ready to face the world once more.
So yeah, I'd have to disagree with this too. Partly because I think Inias wouldn't have been good for him in the long run - he'd have ultimately drawn Cas into a quiet stupor and tried to return him to the angel he was (not intentionally though! Inias is lovely, he wants only what he thinks is the best for Cas ♥). But also because I think Cas HAS self-confidence already. It was his newfound self-confidence that enabled him to be so sincere about his apology to Dean, to be so calm when talking to Sam and offering his blood. That enabled him to say 'no' to Inias and brave going off into the world alone.
Again, you can be self-confident, while also being vulnerable, I think.
In fact... I'm even starting to wonder if Cas is actually on to Meg's manipulation. He's just sticking with her anyway because he appreciates what she's done for him, whatever the reason, and has developed a certain fondness... damn it. Next episode please, I need these things expanded upon!